Today starts the dreaded journey for family & friends to say our final goodbyes to my beloved Son in-law. We will be on a somber road trip that nobody real wants to take.
I am no stranger to loss and could write a book on loss just from my own experiences.
I can explain losing someone you love is the hardest thing in the world to deal with. Itʼs a kind of pain that you physically feel all over your body. Itʼs suffering of the worst kind. To make things even worse, it seems like no one else understands how just exactly youʼre feeling.
In the first few weeks and months people gather round, cry with you, listen to your stories, bring over food, check in on you often and help with all those little things you canʼt bring yourself to think about.
But after about 3 months the crowd thins out. People seem to go back to their normal lives and expect that youʼll do the same. You get your first real taste of being alone in the grief. Over the first
year you gear yourself up and survive the first birthday, anniversary, vacation, and holidays since your loved one died.
Then the real, true suffering begins. You realize that you have to keep doing it. Surviving the first anniversary of all those events was only the beginning and you somehow have to keep going.
Thatʼs why NO ONE can tell you how to deal with your grief. Donʼt let anyone tell you when itʼs time to get rid of your loved ones things, or when itʼs time to stop crying or visiting the cemetery. You
have to figure out for yourself, when your ready to make changes. Your grief belongs to you.
Every time you cry for your loved one, itʼs a way of honoring who they are in your life and what you have lost. It lets the world know someone really precious has left us and that they still matter.
Find people to talk to that donʼt tell you how to feel. People that will let you feel sad, or tell your stories, or just sit quietly if thatʼs what you need. If you get scared or really begin to have difficulty
making it through the day, reach out to someone to get some extra support.
They canʼt make the grief go away but they can support you while you learn to walk through it.
The Walk Begins...
Nana
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